a year of world building

dear friend,

i would love to send you a birthday invitation.

it’s becoming increasingly frustrating that all my friends and i are not living together in the same place and see each others often enough.

and when birthday is approaching i feel exceptionally hard about this reality.

so i am getting to the heart of why this is bothering me.

“I have a lot of people I like, but I don’t necessarily have a lot of people I’m deeply close to anymore in day to day life.”

and then my birthday becomes this weird annual mechanism for trying to reassemble all these scattered friendships and recover the closeness that distance and modern life have eroded.

and i thought about what would make this year different, it’s probably not another travel, event, festival, physical gift. but if i can hear you a bit more and those long deep vulnerable conversations i treasure like usual.

i also need help. it’s been difficult to make time, space and heart for creation, because modern life doesn’t seem to make head room for things. at the mean time i am doing ok on paper, always. and if anything would make a difference this year for me, is your advice.

i want to make my these thoughts in my head, imagination, into something real, not just words on paper. i can’t produce, and part of me refuse to sit in front of computer to do it, even i have gears and softwares.

and if you are receiving this “invitation” it’s because i think you are deeply creative by nature, and you would understand my struggle, and have something, some words, to offer to help. and if any, that’s the best gift i can ask for. is to help me unstuck on this creative journey.

i am usually available 7:45am pst on my way to work. please text me for the day you can all and let’s call.

most of you are not in the same city as me, so this is the best way i can think of to celebrate me. cheers to a year of world building, in a very vulnerable starting.

please make me not hiding.

please tell me what i need to do.

please connect me with people. don’t say you don’t know anyone. close your eye and shut up, you will see someone showing up in your mind. or in the near future.

please send me music.

- shiyoo before birthday