behind the scene

nov 22nd

one of the lowest day of my november. i didn’t remember a single moment before i was looking forward to my very first indoor ecstatic dance. it has been an indefinite waiting, for my fate to turn around and prove that i am pure. but it wasn’t kicking in time. i was losing hope and a quarter alive. so i decided, i should go out and see the people in the city, because i never know if i will be able to see the city the next day, then the next day. i might never be here again. so i should go, see the city and the lovely people.

the human spinal chains

i met katya, a space fashion designer, in laughing frog yoga in 2023. katya invited me to his house party that i met ruya, a mermaid. ruya’s indigenous dance fest in topanga led me to meet bowen, the social networker, and bowen brought me to a birthday party in beverly hills that i met brent, the genie vocalist. brent invited me to jessica’s magic backyard jam that i met blank b, the flower boy. and blank b invited me to ecstatic dance. so here i am.

i should talk a bit about blank b. b and i definitely had a spiritual attraction on the first met. it wasn’t a crush, it was pure joy, finding another sunshine creature in this ever darkened world. i immediately appreciate him so much, and so did him. we made a dance on the spot call “new friend”, and we were adorable. it was one of the best start of my male friendships, extremely transparent, communicative, yet intimate. b and i ran into each others at the door of the primal move. him and skylar, the flower girl, showed up holding each other’s hands. i was instantly attracted by skylar, the perfect being for him, i was so excited for them.

the harvest

i usually go to social settings like this and ended up with a basket of new friends. it was always wildly productive. i must have been lovely too. i looked like an elf that day, and i met a few strong characters.

adam, an expressive dance magician. i felt like dancing with a pantomimist.

fish, a transformative being who can mimic any animals. the most chameleon like dancer on the floor.

skylar, the perfect flower girlfriend for b. I am slightly addicted to being around her. she is the same size like me, but she felt like my big sister.

matthew, a talented shaman vibed massager who got my every pain points right.

i felt accomplished for the day, i fell onto the infinite sofa and was done for the day.

a crystal dragon

i saw a crystal dragon on the dance floor covered in white fabrics just like me. the strongest aura of the entire floor. i was mesmerized. what a charm to watch from far away. but i wasn’t trying to talk to him. a. i was tired from talking, and already fished enough friends for the night. b. my presumption - someone like him, 9/10 too popular, and i would never get to schedule anything with him. c. 9/10 he is a gay.

our space crossed. he looked at me and said, hey, can i give you a hug. i said yes. he hugged me. it was one of the best 3 hugs i’ve gotten in my life. the other two came from ray/rachel, a soul-twin sunshine mermaid; dalton, the center character of my curiouser and curiouser.

i fell onto the infinite sofa again with bowen. we caught up on our lives in the last 1.5 years separated from eden forest. it was so nice to meet old friend and talk in nostalgia, and discover the woven who/when/where of our mutual friends. i also finally got the chance to thank him for keeping inviting me out to magical gatherings, and leading me to be bestie with brent. while we were talking, adam, the magician dancer came, and asked me my ultimate two emojis. i texted him jellyfish, phoenix. adam and bowen stared at my choices, and both of their eyes burst open, breath stalled and heads trembled. hilarious.

the next moment, i found the crystal dragon talking to others sitting right next to me. from a drone point of view, we were next to each others with a few inches gap, but in two separate circular conversations with their own energetic fields. i was in the conversation with bowen, and he was in the conversation with others. but a few moments later, our circles crossed and a third space was blooming between us. our conversation was immediately rooting into the core of the earth and sprouting into the sky. shortly, without me noticing, everyone left, and i found him holding my hand, our foreheads were touching. i felt an ocean in my vein.

i witnessed soft electric ripples of him and his guy friend holding hands and exchanging eye contact. wow. (he must be a gay). and the next moment, he left briefly. i felt how much warmth he had brought to my sphere. and i was left in a temporary coldness staring at the dance floor speechless. during that brief cooling moment, his friend came and whispered in my ear, “he is a great guy.” …what is happening? isn’t he your date?

we both had serendipities of how hard it is to leave each others from the conversation so he-invited-i-yes-ed to go for late night food to keep it growing.

we both were attractive beings that night. i was mildly trapped by a strawberry, and when he was back, i hinted and he rescued me from the strawberry. but people kept finding us on our way out. it was our first dance. a dance in a wave of human attentions. i directed and we made it out the space same time. he gave me a hug again and i drifted like a cloud.

our conversation that night was like an adventure through millions of unexpected resonances. everything that he was talking about, i was curious about. and everything he was not talking about, i wanted to bring it up and he would follow me into. it was an infinite conversation that we started and impossible to stop.

he is such an extension of his own mind. when i asked him if he can cook, he showed me a plate of lobsters, and i laughed in my head. of course, lobster.

when i drove him back to the street parking for his car a few hours later, he lifted me up to the high curb and wrapped me into his hug. we were about the same height now. he was in the wrong position to initiate, so instead i grabbed his head and kissed him. we swam into his car and melted in each others arms, and we never stopped kissing ever since.

the second time we met on a mission to chase sunset. he was wearing a bright yellow jacket and walking towards me like a giant happy bird. i was raised by a curb again, looked into his eyes first time in day light. my breath stopped. we kissed non stop, and he smelled like a garden to me.

i started driving and today he surprised me by talking like an upgraded version from two days ago. i said “you sounded like an adult” with suspicion, and he laughed. when we arrived at point dume, the sun already set. and the ocean was blanketed in moon light. i was never there after sun already set. the ocean was sparkling. we spent a long time at the ocean lookout and he folded me into his jacket while we were exchanging thoughts and temperature. then we went home, i fed him with my all-time-worst-cooking and he said it was delicious.

the third time i picked him up in the airport while he flew back from a snow storm.

i shared with him the darkness i went through and the fortune i got, and how we met on nov 22nd which was exactly in my fortune. i was surprised that he wasn’t surprised, and he received it like he knew it.

i said we should use the sunset room for sleeping since the bed is bigger. he turned around and showed up in the sunrise room instead and said we could all fit here. i was inspired. an option out of my palette. the best choice! and yes we fit perfectly with eclipse on the “ore” (like oreo cookie but without the bottom piece) futon bed. the next morning he opened the window blind and the sun came through and made a glowing halo around his entire body. everything stopped and i felt heaven. i took a mental picture of that moment. it was way too perfect.

we ate a breakfast in the sun garden. my breakfast looked like a dragon fruit flower arrangement. wow, look at the visual. i am manifesting into his aura as he is into mine.

when he was about to leave, i stared into his car while he was LEGOing his cargo into back seats. i was enlightened by his move and his lego—i had my eye wide open. he took a breath back and apologized for being messy. haha, he took it completely wrong. i laughed in my head. no time to explain, my dragon boy, you need to fly. let’s keep this dynamic as is for now so i can keep pranking you.

thanksgiving, the ending credit

thank Seth for seeing me and unlocking me 8 years ago in every direction, and inspiring me for sublime.

thank Antonio for ending us with such respect to my life and body that i can be at peace.

thank Ray for giving me space to be the nearest i’ve ever come to connect with a woman so i can have clarity.

thank Dalton for being the teacher of intimacy.

thank Yona for getting me out of loneliness, and respecting my body while i visit your home even we had a romantic connection.

thank dome crew for being the rare example of a perfectly functional open-polyamory so i could gain clarity.

thank Sean for exciting me and giving me the most thoughtful closure for Tomorrow Today so i am not attached to us.

thank Aaron and Clayton for not pursuing me even i knew you had a crush on me.

thank Nuri, Phil, Moru, Keiko, Oda, Fumi for taking care of me in Japan and showing me so much beauty of this world in my darkest time.

thank Leon, Ben and Dhruba for receiving me in Oaxaca and unlocking my songwriting.

thank Brent for being my gay best friend so i am not attracted into a dark relationship during my darkest time.

thank disco siblings, Heather, Sean and Yas for instant new friendfamilyships.

thank Journey and Majik for being my soul sisters.

thank whatevermike for inspiring my aura.

thank rachel and chris, then another chris and his gay partner for inspiring me unity.

thank B, Brent, Bowen, Ruya, Katya for making a human spinal chain that lead to our encountering.

thank God for making Davis.

thank Davis for making it this far.

thank fire god for an accurate revelation.

thank fire for my rebirth.

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This film has ended, and the spacetime fairytale of a crystal dragon and a jellyfish phoenix has began.