doppelgänger

I got a problem.

I am growing into AURORA. I am becoming her. Voices, thoughts, ways of moving and looking at people. Recently, my sister told me, "you sound and look like Aurora it's kinda creepy". She is not wrong. When I showed up to her concert, I synced with her, and almost everything she said was my thoughts from a second ago. 

Right now she is the sun blocking out all other sources. Fascinating, disorienting, and scary at times.

Through her, I discovered a lot about myself.

“There is something very soft about English and I really like it.”

“I am very isolated, but I seem to touch people significantly when I talk.”

“I love music, but I don’t like listening to most of the music. I found them to be like noise.”

“Success is when I take the best use of my time.”

“I make people laugh but I don’t find those things funny. I was serious.”

“I have a hole in my heart, and it won’t stop talking.”

“I always find nature to be very inspiring, but lately I find people inspiring.”

She is a more journeyed sister. I know we are the same kind, but different. I want to find myself on the other side and with a clearer emerging sense of that self. And I hope that by the time I am ready to share my art with the world, she will have been a guiding light along my path that I will have individuated in natural ways.